Tradition and Breaking Out

Hello all! No, I have not disappeared, and no, I did not fall into the use of psychedelic drugs. It has been a while since my last post, but I can assure you, the disappearance is not due to a sudden dive into psychedelics. There was one time in during my downtime that I had a friend ask me about ayahuasca, and I was tempted! I was tempted because I believe in fate and chance. When something crosses your path a few times, I think it is someone or something trying to tell you something. I resisted having boiled it down to this basic reason: I want to bring about the change in me, not do so through plants. I don't hold it against anyone who decides to use psychedelics either.

To the topic at hand, I find that tradition is good for somethings, like having cake on your birthday. I feel, though, that we have to be careful with tradition. It has a tendency to lull our minds into a strait of narrow thought. Our thoughts in these times should not be narrowing but expanding. The danger lies in closing your mind to people and ways of thinking. Before you know it, a closed mind is thinking of ways to set limits for society and impose their personal beliefs on structures like law-making and governing. Sometimes it tends to make people believe that what is good for them should be good enough for the rest of us, and that is a dangerous way to think.

I am personally having a difficult time right now.

I am at a crossroads where something big is about to happen. I have started Reiki, but there seem to be few opportunities to perform it, even when I am giving it away. I have had one person, since I started practicing Reiki in January, who approached a friend of mine to inquire about it. I made a mistake about the amount I charged, and I supposed the amount was a bit scary. I since apologized and have reduced the price, but also offered it to the person for free. This person still seems skeptical, and I don't hold that against them at all.

I have started doing some work with dowsing as well. It seems really cool! There is a lot of work that goes into preparing the pendulum for dowsing, but the promise to get real answers that are reliable is there. This is the part of building my own intuition that is most rewarding, in my opinion. I started this with Tarot, but the pendulum seems so much more detailed and specific.

I am in the middle of changing jobs. I live in Taiwan, so it is important for me to get an alien residency card to remain legally. I have one more year to go before I get my permanent ARC, then I can do any job I want. Right now, I am stuck teaching. The school I am leaving has taught me a lot of lessons. I actually really tried to bring about positive change to the school, but the administrators didn't want my help. They didn't want my opinions. They wanted to oppress me, force me into doing silly things, and indirectly declare that they care little for my personal safety. This taught me that no matter how hard I try, there will be obstacles that are clinging to traditional ways of thinking, like materialistic greed. I don't want to be judgmental because everyone comes from different walks, but it really does seems sometimes that people that I am involved with think with backwards logic. It's frustrating.

I am finding it more and more difficult to fit into the mold that we call society. Teaching is a good job when teachers are free to teach what they want, when they are not poked and prodded to do meaningless tasks my administration, when there are students who are interested in learning. I find that there is a particular dogma that is desired to go along with that teaching, and that is to maintain the status quo of the society. Don't adapt, don't change, don't think. Put your head down, go to work, make someone rich with money while your soul is sucked out of you. That is not me, and I refuse to do that any longer than I have to.

There are positive things coming down the pipe for me, and I am anxious to break out of this "matrix" for lack of a better word, this stage where we are meant to perform like marionettes. We set our limits for ourselves, and I am setting mine so high that it's off the surface of the world. It is a lonely walk, it seems, because there are so few that think this way, or at least few who are willing to do something about it. Yet, it is so difficult to break out of the society too. Unfortunately, to live in this world, we still need things like money. How do you get money? Work for someone, or make your own business. The fact is that I am so disconnected from the system in which this world stagnates that I don't care to participate in its economy. It may be that I have so little to offer the world as a monetized service, too. What interest do I have in worldly possessions or effort toward anything that isn't working toward a better lifestyle for me and for everyone? The answer is: no interest.

There is a change that is coming; I can feel it. How prepared will I be?